Two years and one day ago was when my life changed forever. To those of you who have suffered from a chronic illness or injury for longer than that, maybe much longer, my two years may seem like the blink of an eye. To those of you who have never suffered from such a long term injury, that may seem like ages. To me, it’s kind of both. On the one hand it seems like a lifetime ago that I was preparing to enjoy my senior year of high school and packing my schedule to the brim with volleyball, AP classes, choir, youth group, church, praise band, girls’ ensemble, Mu Alpha Theta club, French Honor Society, National Honor Society, etc, etc. On the other hand, I can’t remember enough of the last two years to fill that much time logically in my head!! Whichever way you look at it, it’s still 2 years. That’s 730.5 days or 17,532 hours that I have had a continuous headache. With the exception of an hour or two sometime last winter when my doctor tried a nerve block that nearly made the pain vanish, even if only for a couple of hours. After giving me the nerve block and allowing it the time to kick in, he asked my pain level- a question I had been asked more times since the start of all of this than I could even attempt to count. And I thought about it, and then started laughing, just chortling slightly, which over the next few seconds turned to hilarious uncontrollable laughter. My brain still being a bit slow at times, I couldn’t figure out why I was laughing, I simply knew that I was. For some reason my body was reacting with uncontrollable outbursts of laughter so intense by this point that I couldn’t even attempt to answer his question. He laughed a bit along with me, but he didn’t seem surprised. He explained it very simply, only saying, “Some people laugh, some people cry, some are too shocked to respond. It’s completely normal.” He smiled kindly and said he would come back in a minute, once I’d calmed back down. The laughing began to subside once he left the room and at that point is when I finally started realizing what he had been saying. “Some people laugh, some people cry, some are too shocked to respond”. It was only then that my brain fully comprehended. There was no pain. Well, there was so LITTLE pain. I couldn’t believe it! My body had already reacted to what my brain couldn’t yet believe to be real. Continue reading →